Believing God

As a new Christian I struggled with a constant awareness of unworthiness and sinful thoughts. It wasn't until a year or so later that I learned that those thoughts are not mine but the devil was harassing me. One day at a hotel room I was going through this battle again and it was really weighing me down. I got on my knees and began to pray I John 1:9, "If we confess our sins God is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."  As I prayed that I kept feeling so unclean instead of clean. The devil was whispering all kinds of thoughts in my head. Finally I just said, "Okay that's it, God says I'm cleansed even though I don't feel like it so I guess I am."  The devil immediately said, "This isn't going to work."  I said, "I've tried it your way now I'm just going to believe God." As I got up the Holy Spirit just fell upon me and all around me.  A great heaviness was lifted and I felt so light.  I actually looked down to see if my feet were on the floor because I could not feel the floor beneath my feet - I felt that light - like I was floating. That was my first experience with powerful waves of the Holy Spirit. Sometimes when I need to relearn the importance of just taking God at his word I think of this experience and some other ones I've had where he confirmed to me his joy whenever we just believe him.  God says...

For the eyes of the Lord move to and fro throughout the earth that he may strongly support those whose heart is completely his. II Chronicles 16:9

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