God's Tsunami
After several years of of not obeying the Lord Jesus I found myself going through a separation and resulting divorce and I was in severe emotional pain. It went on for many months but was getting very very bad. Finally it reached its peak one day while I was painting a house near TCU in Fort Worth, TX.
I was standing in a den looking into the kitchen and frustrated that once again I had underbid this job and it was taking far too much work and far too much time. This and all of the other things I was going through just piled up on me. I stared into the kitchen and said, "God how can a man go on like this day after day. I see no future in it." Right then I had a thought to kill myself and so I said, "I guess I'll just kill myself." Immediately I heard God say, "Don't do it." I responded, "You're right I won't, it would affect my kids." But now I was even more despondent because now I had to keep living with this extreme pain. Again I said, "How can a man go on like this day after day!" Clear as a bell God said, "You need to pray." Oh that did it, I was furious. I started yelling at God and told him what a waste of time that would be and how I was already behind on this job and if I prayed I would be even further behind. He said, "You need to pray." I said, "Okay I'll pray. I'll show you what a waste of time it is. I'll pray an hour or two hours or all day then I'll be way behind, I'll show you - there are you happy now!"
I went into another room and knelt on the floor with my elbows on an ottoman and began to pray. I was somewhat surprised at what I was praying, but it just came out like a spring flows out of the ground. I was making a commitment to take him at his word and believe everything he says. I said I would take it to the extreme and believe for healing and miracles and raising the dead. I said I would lay hands on people and do all these things and if they beat me up or injured me it would be his responsibility to heal me and replace any body parts that were missing! I said I would tell people about Jesus and that if no one else in the entire world believed him I would. I told him I am going to be the biggest believing fool there is! There that's it.
I looked at the time and my praying had lasted about fifteen minutes. Then as I started to get up He hit me. A powerful wave just swept over me engulfing me, it felt so wonderful, then it went back the way it came. I could feel another wave coming toward me, I could feel the pressure ahead of the wave then it hit me again. Woosh, all over me, washing me, engulfing me, and back out it went. Again and again this happened for many minutes. Then a wave went out and I just sat there on my knees staring wondering. I said, "Are you finished, is that it?" Nothing, so I got up and went back to work. The pain was completely gone and a great peace came over me.
For many days I just went to work as usual and didn't really notice anything. Then about the fifth day I said, "God, what was that all about?" He said, "Haven't you noticed, everything is different." I stood there and realized everything was very different. His presence was so near all day long everyday, I could hear him talking with me just like I could hear anyone, there was so much peace and joy, and I felt so full of life inside. I realized that the reason I didn't notice anything for five days was that I was in his presence so much that I was not in touch with earthly things that much so that was the new normal for me now. I began to experience the gift of prophesy, and the gift of faith, an understanding of healing and, the authority of the believing christian. I began to experience a lot of heavenly things happening to me and through me as I went about my day. All the stories on this website except three happened after this experience. God says...
For we also once were foolish ourselves, disobedient, deceived, enslaved to various lusts and pleasures, spending our life in malice and envy, hateful, hating one another. But when the kindness of God our Savior, and his love for mankind appeared, He saved us not on the basis of deeds which we have done in righteousness, but according to his mercy, by the washing of regeneration, and renewing by the Holy Spirit, whom he poured out upon us richly through Jesus Christ our Savior, so that being justified by his grace we would be made heirs according to the hope of eternal life.
Titus 3:3-7
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I was standing in a den looking into the kitchen and frustrated that once again I had underbid this job and it was taking far too much work and far too much time. This and all of the other things I was going through just piled up on me. I stared into the kitchen and said, "God how can a man go on like this day after day. I see no future in it." Right then I had a thought to kill myself and so I said, "I guess I'll just kill myself." Immediately I heard God say, "Don't do it." I responded, "You're right I won't, it would affect my kids." But now I was even more despondent because now I had to keep living with this extreme pain. Again I said, "How can a man go on like this day after day!" Clear as a bell God said, "You need to pray." Oh that did it, I was furious. I started yelling at God and told him what a waste of time that would be and how I was already behind on this job and if I prayed I would be even further behind. He said, "You need to pray." I said, "Okay I'll pray. I'll show you what a waste of time it is. I'll pray an hour or two hours or all day then I'll be way behind, I'll show you - there are you happy now!"
I went into another room and knelt on the floor with my elbows on an ottoman and began to pray. I was somewhat surprised at what I was praying, but it just came out like a spring flows out of the ground. I was making a commitment to take him at his word and believe everything he says. I said I would take it to the extreme and believe for healing and miracles and raising the dead. I said I would lay hands on people and do all these things and if they beat me up or injured me it would be his responsibility to heal me and replace any body parts that were missing! I said I would tell people about Jesus and that if no one else in the entire world believed him I would. I told him I am going to be the biggest believing fool there is! There that's it.
I looked at the time and my praying had lasted about fifteen minutes. Then as I started to get up He hit me. A powerful wave just swept over me engulfing me, it felt so wonderful, then it went back the way it came. I could feel another wave coming toward me, I could feel the pressure ahead of the wave then it hit me again. Woosh, all over me, washing me, engulfing me, and back out it went. Again and again this happened for many minutes. Then a wave went out and I just sat there on my knees staring wondering. I said, "Are you finished, is that it?" Nothing, so I got up and went back to work. The pain was completely gone and a great peace came over me.
For many days I just went to work as usual and didn't really notice anything. Then about the fifth day I said, "God, what was that all about?" He said, "Haven't you noticed, everything is different." I stood there and realized everything was very different. His presence was so near all day long everyday, I could hear him talking with me just like I could hear anyone, there was so much peace and joy, and I felt so full of life inside. I realized that the reason I didn't notice anything for five days was that I was in his presence so much that I was not in touch with earthly things that much so that was the new normal for me now. I began to experience the gift of prophesy, and the gift of faith, an understanding of healing and, the authority of the believing christian. I began to experience a lot of heavenly things happening to me and through me as I went about my day. All the stories on this website except three happened after this experience. God says...
For we also once were foolish ourselves, disobedient, deceived, enslaved to various lusts and pleasures, spending our life in malice and envy, hateful, hating one another. But when the kindness of God our Savior, and his love for mankind appeared, He saved us not on the basis of deeds which we have done in righteousness, but according to his mercy, by the washing of regeneration, and renewing by the Holy Spirit, whom he poured out upon us richly through Jesus Christ our Savior, so that being justified by his grace we would be made heirs according to the hope of eternal life.
Titus 3:3-7
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