Surrendered To His Knife
This morning I was convicted to once again let Jesus have all of me. Psalm 139: 23,24 says, Search me, O God, and know my heart. Try me, and know my anxious thoughts and see if there be any hurtful way in me and lead me in the everlasting way. I have prayed this before, but deep down I either thought I was okay or I did not really want to do this. But today I laid my soul on the table and truly asked him to search me; look at everything, every place, know my heart. Everything must be open to his uncovering of it, his exposure of it, and his discovery of it. Try me means to be tested. Oh, I do not want this, but I must yield to him. There must be a discovering of what’s there so he can deal with it.
As I did this, I saw Jesus standing there with a scalpel. I thought he would be cutting just a little here and a little there so I said, “Okay go ahead”. Suddenly to my surprise he immediately began slicing huge thick slabs of my flesh inside of me, like cleaning out the inside of a pumpkin. Long full thick slabs of my flesh were being sliced off with every move of his arm making long huge sweeping strokes. I was shocked! Again and again he did this. I looked around and said, “If you keep this up there won’t be anything left of me – just an empty shell. He looked at me with that knowing look of his and said, “Exactly, none of you, all of me. We need to make room for me to fill every crevice of you.” I prayed again: “Lord I want to be wholly yours. I don’t want to be an average Christian. I want to see your power work through me in mighty ways. I want to walk with you, obey you, listen to you, and let you move through me to touch others.”
Then He showed me something about Psalm 139:24, See if there be any hurtful way in me. Literally it says “way of pain”. He showed me that “the hurtful way” or “way of pain” is his! Is there anything in me that is hurting him or brings pain to him! Oh Jesus I want to bring you joy and pleasure not pain.
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As I did this, I saw Jesus standing there with a scalpel. I thought he would be cutting just a little here and a little there so I said, “Okay go ahead”. Suddenly to my surprise he immediately began slicing huge thick slabs of my flesh inside of me, like cleaning out the inside of a pumpkin. Long full thick slabs of my flesh were being sliced off with every move of his arm making long huge sweeping strokes. I was shocked! Again and again he did this. I looked around and said, “If you keep this up there won’t be anything left of me – just an empty shell. He looked at me with that knowing look of his and said, “Exactly, none of you, all of me. We need to make room for me to fill every crevice of you.” I prayed again: “Lord I want to be wholly yours. I don’t want to be an average Christian. I want to see your power work through me in mighty ways. I want to walk with you, obey you, listen to you, and let you move through me to touch others.”
Then He showed me something about Psalm 139:24, See if there be any hurtful way in me. Literally it says “way of pain”. He showed me that “the hurtful way” or “way of pain” is his! Is there anything in me that is hurting him or brings pain to him! Oh Jesus I want to bring you joy and pleasure not pain.
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